I'm pretty sure that trying to online date is actually lowering my chances of finding something real and lasting. I just can't do it anymore. I despise the entire process and I've never met someone who was actually a quality person, not saying that these people don't exist, but I sure as heck haven't found them yet. I wonder if something happens when people meet from an online medium where both people's coolness factor is automatically halved.
So, what next? I keep on keeping on.
Some new guy sent me "questions" online, but I've been so busy with work I haven't had the time or energy to respond, so I probably look uninterested. However, I've tried to adopt some blind optimism and went ahead and answered his questions anyway. Who knows, maybe the fourth online date (in three months) is the charm?
Which brings me to my next order of business. This online dating profile expires in early September and I am not continuing to pay for the service. It's just crap and I have to have more faith in myself than I do in finding other desperate individuals who may or, more likely, may not be compatible with me. I know I'm a harsher judge when it comes to online dating than I am when it comes to meeting people organically, but I think that is even more reason for me to abandon the online medium for a little while.
As for the rest, I'm completely single. I'm no longer hopeful that the men who I've met recently will step up and take the reins, but I am hopeful that someday some man will take the lead and show some real interest, love, and dedication. This person would have to also be someone whom I could in return learn to love, adore, and respect. I really want to find a partner in this life and I have to believe that is a real possibility and be open to the people that the universe is sending my way instead of those whom an online algorithm says will match.
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